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>> ashlee justine and josh michael…..

>> i miss you so much my little ones…

>> it’s been 4 mos and 18 days to be exact since i left both of you….it was the most painful day of my life…..kissing you goodbye is the most heart-breaking part…but i had to and soon you will understand why i did it…

>> as i hear your tiny voices over the net, can’t help myself not to cry….aj always asks me, “ma, bakit ka umiiyak? may sipon ka ba?” hahahaha - “miss you aj” yan lagi sinasabi ko,love you baby ko…and she’ll reply, love you mama….miss you mama…

>> when peolpe ask aj where her mom is, accdg to nanang, she’ll say, mama is in australia, bumili lang ng chocolate and she’ll be home soon….

>> there was a time when she didn’t want to talk to me…siguro nagtatampo kasi nga bakit antagal ko na raw hindi umuuwi, sabi ko raw sandali lng ako..sabi pa nya pag sinsabi ng papa nya na kausapin ako, “may ginagawa ako pa” kesyo, she’s watching cartoons or reading her books….and that made it harder on my part…

>>just recently, when i was talking to daisy over the phone, aj heard me say na pauwi na ko (galing sa mall dito sa australia papuntang bahay)- akala ng bata, im on my way home to the philippines…that afternoon, she asked mamang dyna to bring some chairs in the garage and they’ll wait for me to arrive…she was waiting for the airplane but ther was none….the following day, when mamang dyna rang up,aj was the one who answered the phone, mama joanne? sabi daw nya, pero it was mamang dyna…to aj’s dismay, iniwan nya ang telepono….namimiss na ko ng anak ko….

>> my lil man - “JM” - he was so small when i left him….he can’t even walk and talk…when he turned 1, mama wasn’t there to celebrate with him, and mama was so sorry about it….

>> and now, when jm sees me in the net, he says “mama” and that’s the most beautiful word that i want to hear from my son…thanks to technology, nakikita pa rin ako nga mga anak ko kahit napakalayo ko sa knila…and to my delight, alam ni jm na ako ang nanay nya kahit wala ako lagi sa tabi ny(lol)

>> they are both growing well….kasi mahal sila ng mga tao sa paligid nila,tnx to mamang dyna and tito chie and tatang lito ang nanang teny and most esp, sa papa ”JAYSON” nila - kaya kampante ako na iwanan din sila, kasi nga alm kong naalagan sila ng mabuti(higit pa sa kaya kong ibigay sa kanila)…

>> what i miss the most is ung bonding time naming mg-anak pag sunday…we go to mass, we eat out..at halos mghapon kami sa playhouse ng JTC mall…in short, we always make it a point to spend quality time with the kids…super late kaming umuwi ng asawa ko galing sa trabaho, pero sinisiguro naman namin na may panahon kami sa mga anak namin…it’s not enough that you are with them physically, “quality time” ang kailangan….dyan nararamdaman ng mga bata ang pagiging magulang mo sa kanila,ung mga simpleng bagay - tulad ng pgkwento sa knila,pagtanong how was their day, pagturo ng nursery rhymes sa knila, pagturo ng alphabet at counting - simple things, yet iilan ang may panahong gumawa - dahilan nila - pagod sa trabaho - you as parents have to know - hindi kasalanan ng bata yan, it’s not a good reason to escape from being parents to your little ones - anyways, it is really your obligation - to be parents to them…i may not be perfect mom to my kids, i have my weaknesses i admit, but i am trying to be a good mom to them….

>> the first time na lumabas sila na wala na ko, sabi ng asawa ko, nakakpanibago by na wala ka…nakaklungkot…i shed a tear - sabi ko, soon mabubuo ulit tau..

>> i can say that jayson and i are so blessed for having our AJ and JM - two smart lil kids….at just one wish for both of them - sana mapalaki namin sila ng tama —

>> thank you lord for bringing AJ and JM into our lives - our “precious gems”

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