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>i never thought it would be this hard…

> it’s been quite some time since i had my last blog posted…i just thought, i have nothing to write - nothing important, i think
> but now, i’m just so happy today - just can’t give details at this moment…but gaya ng lagi nyang sinasabi - this is indeed a life changing opportunity - i just can’t let it slip by
>  i may never realize at this point in time my longterm dream, but this one is equally worthy…
>  just want to thank the lord for this one rare chance of my lifetime

>la lang - i’m still waiting for my baby boy….ngbayag ka anak…hahahahaa

> maybe not yet the right time…god will just give me a sign….

>MOVING ON - just two words…..about a second to blurt out…but can be a million years to achieve…the more you try to get over, the more that person is invading the mind and heart, so believe it or not, there’s no such thing as moving on - it’s a matter of getting used with the pain …. to put in one word - "NUMB"

> i’ve written blog and an open letter for papang years back and i feel guilty that i’ve done nothing like these for mamang…

>she surely won’t read this - she has no friendster account but i know someone will tell her about this - and i know it’s tiyang ising! hahahahaha

>just want to thank her for all the things that she has done and she is doing for me and for my siblings pati na ang unica apo nyang si aj kulit ….she may not be perfect - hu is perfect anyway? BUT WE DON’T CARE!

> a mother will always be a mother to her child…..no matter what!

> yan si mamang - never akong iniwan esp in hard times….hanggang ngaun nga na may asawa at anak na ko - i am still a lil daughter to her - she’s just a txt away  - isang txt or tawag lang, to the rescue na….lalo ngaung buntis ako, if i’m in pain, txt ako - mang agsakit tyan ko - agtartaray umay mangkita kanyak. minsan di ko nga masabi sa asawa ko na masakit tyan ko wenno agbetted sakak - si mama pa tinatawag ko….sya kasi, she’s after my welfare, i know - the concern and the love -  definetely "unconditional" and that i will never repay….baketakon ket damagen na pay lang no nakaawid nak met langen, no kayat ko ti sida nga kastoy, kasdyay…hayyyyyy….

> i want you to know that i will always be here for you - walang iwanan yan till the day i die …..

> "THANK YOU"- that simple mamang ….. i mean it - from the bottom of my heart - AJ and I LOVE YOU SO MUCH ….. i will never ask for any other mom - u’re simply the best!

>it’s been nine months…parang kelan lang…ngaun, days na lang, i’m going to see you and hold you in my arms….i’m so excited….JOSH MICHAEL - JM….my little boy…you’ll finally come out and bring joy to our lives….

>these past few days, i’ve been feeling mix emotions - excitement and fear …. excited to see your face and at the same time, takot din ako…baka mahirapan ka sa delivery ko sau..(sana hindi naman - di ko kkyanin)

>SON - you are "worth keeping for"…that is all i want you to know…i thought you didn’t come at the right time but i was wrong - i am so sorry …sana mapafeel ko sau how much i love you and how sorry i am….

>"ading" - that is how your ate aj call you as she kisses and hugs my tummy - she knows that you are inside it….she is also excited to see and play with you….

>always remember - mama will always be here for you and ate aj…i would be more than willing to sacrifice evrything for both of you….i hope and i pray that you will both grow up well…

>I LOVE YOU SO MUCH LITTLE BOY…..

> nothing important….just want to say THANKS TO MY CREDIT CARDS ! lagi silang nandyan when i need them…hahahahahaha…..especially sa mga stuffs ng baby ko….hay naku…la lang, naisip ko lang mag thank you….sn di magsawa sa pagpapautang! hahahahaha…awan man ngamin maubra kon so aglalaok man masao kon piman pay!

> God is so good that he granted another prayer….he is giving us a baby boy….

>april 28, 2007…me and my husband’s 1oth year anniversary(as boyfriend & girlfriend - hihihihihi) - I had my ultrasound @ MVCH @ 2:30 pm….but before i went to the hosp, muntik ng mgbago isip ko kc dalawa ulit nagsabi na siguro daw i’ll be having another baby girl…when we arrived at the hosp, wala ung doctor….ung assistant lng nandun and she told me na diko makukuha result that day….medyo disappointed but i asked her kahit gender lng malaman ko ok na…..cge daw…we went on with the ultrasound….i was so nervous that time….syempre ok lng khit boy or another girl ung second baby…pero i admit din, i was still hoping na lalaki baby nmin( khit na isa pa lng ngsasabi na lalaki anak ko)…..ate judee asked me kung anong hula ko…sbi ko baka babae, un kasi lahat ang sinasabi nila….she smiled and told me they were all wrong coz we will be having a BABY BOY this time…i said, "YES!"…and asked her if she’s not joking…she confirmed it…i was so happy…. - the greatest anniversary gift ever for me and for my husband…

>my hubby wasn’t there…it was only mom and aj….i was smiling…i planned to surprise them pero i was so transparent…i was smiling to death……hahahahaha

>i txted my hubby, sabi ko monday pa result…..pero when he arrived di ko rin napigilan to reveal the BIG SURPRISE….And as expected….he was so happy then….imagine, a little jayson to come so soon….

>hay….God is really good….another blessing to come….THANK YOU DEAR LORD for this….

it was a surprise for mama when aj tried to walk alone…she was smiling as she was trying to balance herself…kasla nabartek…hikhikhik….mama was so proud that night –her baby was showcasing another development and talent….more and more practice…now ashlee can walk fastly and proudly "ALONE"….stage mother, that is how they call me, pero kever! my baby can tell you how old is she….the sounds of jordan( dog), cat, lizard, horse and bird…can say pabulol na flower( power), apo, pia( pias) papapa( papaya) , tso(shoes) and of kors, papa, mama, tatang and partly nanang…can put a cellphone sa ear nya and say  looooo( hello)…knows apir, clap, align, close-open, can demonstrate a finger if you say "count", can make a sign of "alla", behhhh, and can even spank you….(turo ng ama)…hahahahaha…can say, dede, mommom(water)…nen-nen(food) a pepsi addict (like mother-like daughter - in runs in the blood pala un….can hide her face and say tit—-bahhhhh , can make face for bad odor….can show you her teeth if you ask her to….can bite you pag naaggigigil….more more more….nalipatak payen…pati c mercy(nanny)di na rin makapag icip…talented dyay alaga nya….hahahahahah…